Heartbroken

I am not normally good about just blogging my thoughts. But, right now I am heartbroken. I tried to call Ranisa, who is usually my sounding board but she wasn't home. I sat in my car for a while after I got the news and just didn't know what to do. After wasting time on the computer and my kids are still happily playing outside (whew!) I can't stop thinking about it.

I have a friend, some of you who may read my blog know her... Amy Mathewson. I don't know her real well but I always enjoy talking to her, she makes me smile. She has three boys that are all about the same age as my kids. In fact, today she was supposed to come over for a play date. We've been trying for weeks. I called several times this morning to make sure we were still on but I couldn't reach anyone. She was supposed to be going to a doctor's appointment this morning and then come over after lunch. Then I got a message from her mom saying that she got hung up at the doctor's office and would either be delayed or would have to reschedule and would call me later. I tried for a while to get a hold of someone to let her know that today I am completely flexible and my boys were looking forward to their play date. After a couple hours I decided to take the kids to the park and then hopefully catch up with her later.

As I was headed home I got a phone call from Amy's sister...

Amy is five months pregnant with her fourth child. Her first three are boys so you can imagine the excitement she must have felt when she found out she was having a girl. Believe me, after two boys, I was ecstatic to have Mackenzie.

"Amy is in the hospital, the baby isn't going to make it."

Apparently, the baby is suffering from a chromosome disorder and won't survive. My heart aches for her. Tears keep springing to my eyes as I think about it. I just can't imagine being that far along in pregnancy with such anticipation and finding out that its over.

I know Amy sometimes reads my blog, and if she does, I just want her to know that my thoughts and prayers are for her. Don't worry about missing our playdate...I got my house all clean and pretty for you and its still that way :0) I wish there was something I could do. Truly, I feel heartbroken.